I always thought ... I always thought I had more time, but death was on a tight schedule. Maybe we can meet for coffee on the other side. I always thought truth might lead the way, but the road to success came through many lies. Failure now suits me just fine. I always thought I'd find a friend; I only found a fiend. Who needs friends, really? I always thought the sun would shine; then it began to rain. Now I carry an umbrella everywhere I go, which dampens my spirit. I always thought she'd hold my hand; then I saw her fingers entwined with another's. Her happy smile was my sad face. I always thought I'd win her smile; Then I heard her laughing in the tall grass with another. Their laughter was my cruel mockery. I always thought the meanness would stop; it turned to furry. Now a little ill humor doesn't bothers me at all. I always thought that love would flow; it turned off like a faucet. I quit feeling bad about smoking. I always thought I'd win her heart; she awarded it to someone who didn't care. For awhile I wanted to die. Isn't that funny? Then he left her. I always thought I would have the perfect thought; then I thought I wanted to die. I gave up thinking about anything for awhile. I always thought I'd see the rainbow in the sky; I was washed into the river by a flash flood. Now I'm happy when it's just not raining. I always thought I'd die a peaceful death; now I lie in the street a sick old man. I'll be glad to die anyway I can; I just want the pain to stop. I always thought that someday I'd be happy; that was before I was engulfed by deep depression. Now I'm happy if I'm not too unhappy. I always thought the war would end; then they began dropping bombs all around me. There is no end in sight now other than mine. I always thought they would have a change of heart; instead, they tried to kill me. "Never change," as the song says, "'cause I love you just the way you look tonight." I always thought they'd see the light; instead, they barricaded their minds. For some the light is just too bright.
	By Louis Martin