Fushan kids back in bus

 

San Francisco—30 April 2011:
Poetic Art: Morning begins ...

 

 

These days

anyone in bed

     after 10 AM

          is considered

               a security risk.

Ditto

anyone     

up          

after 10 PM.               

"Rembember 911?"

Does that make

latenight

     poetry

          dangerous

but

daytime     

bombings          

okay?               

"Remember 911

and put your shoes in the tray."

 

 

Shadeless and impotent

—trees cut, oil sucked dry—

few really care.

"Environment" is now

a marketing buzz word,

"green" the color of money.

 

 

Many times

     I hear

          the impure laugh

          le rire impure

rapid

     stacatto

          like rifle fire.

Then I look

     for the victims:

          sensitivity

          reason.

 

 

I am nobadic now

     like a one-man army

          in retreat

               making and breaking camp

                    each day.

Thank you Bushmen,

thank you government that isn't.

The writing suffers

     but that's okay;

          I do not kill.

I leave that

     to the banks

          and their Wall Street

               buddies.

 

 

"I was like,

     'What the fuck,

          shut up,

               get the fuck out.'"

She'd heard those words

     in a war movie

          and liked saying them."

 

 

Dorm

Twenty-two beds

in a room

without heat

in January;

twenty-two people

breathing the same air,

people from all over the world—

Les Français, Die Deutschen, Los Sudamericanos; zhōngguórén (中国人);táiwānrén (台湾人); geuligo hangug salam (한국 사람); Americans; Australians; New Zealanders; Nigerians; Moroccans; South Africans ...

—breathing the same air;

all hacking and sick now,

any illness anywhere

now shared—

illness without borders

or doctors

in a room with 22 bunks.

Bunk you

bunk me;

get bunked for

25 US bucks per bed

550 US bucks per night

for the bank

which has lost nothing

though former schemes have failed.

And the victims?

You and me

them and us.

Fools

most of them:

laptop

cell-phone

"travelers,"

hand-held owners

self disowners

manipulated

by an industry

out for the buck, the euro, the yuán (元) ...  

and touting the "virtual" experience

over the real.

 

In the morning

a chorus of alarms,

ring-tone novelties

without novelty

urging users

to do something

anything;

top off their accounts, perhaps.

Did Orwell just get the year wrong?

But in bed they lie

the dead of a new age

composing replies

to fantasy

text-message

offerings of love and adventure

and even travel should they get out of bed.

But silicon and software win the day.

The bed is warm;

they press SNOOZE

and dream their lives away;

updates to Facebook,

Twitter alerts

can wait.

 

I AM the only

BELIEVER

who doesn't believe

IT,

THE BIG LIE

when the wide-screen

TV news goes off

at exactly 11:30 PM.

They guy next to me says,

"This is really a nice place."

"What place?" I ask.

"This hostel," he says.

I think he is being sarcastic;

he gives me a strange look

when I say,

"Yeah, and they just closed the kitchen down too. Bunch of dumb assholes!"

I'm walking down Columbus Avenue

in heavy rain

when I see a sign:

TWO ROOMS FOR RENT
INQUIRE WITHIN

I'm not in an inquiring mood;

I'm depressed and it's raining.

But later, in an inquiring mood,

I come back.

I walk up a long flight of stairs.

There is no bad smell;

that is promising.

The young Indian woman

is lying on the couch

looking very old.

"I am curious," I say,

"about the rooms

you have for rent."

She looks curious about nothing.

I talk with her through a hole in the thick glass window of the office on the second floor. A young dark-haired boy is playing in the room, her son, I presume.

The price of either, she tells me, is $40 per day, $185 per week, or $750 per month. She hands me the keys to see one of the rooms on the next floor up.

I walk up another flight of stairs;

still no bad smell.

But the keys don't fit and I have to come back. A black man is now standing at the hole in the window.

"I apologize about last night," he says, squirming before the window, trying to make an impression.

She says nothing.

I tell her the keys don't fit in 228 and she hands me another set of keys—they look like her master keys—and she goes back to the couch.

Is she perhaps experiencing morning sickness? Is she depressed or both?

This time the door opens and I examine the room.

Small single bed

far right corner of the room.

Small closet near the door on the left

no roaches I can see.

One window that overlooks

gray lower rooftop,

some soda cans

trash

on rooftop.

Walls off-white

or maybe just dirty.

Purgatory room,

I tell myself,

place to ask why

gain strength

put a life

back together

beg for forgiveness

or decide they deserved it;

look for a job

or a good excuse

reconnect with

alienated family

or write them off

like a bad loan

forever;

but forever is a long time

or at least an abstract concept

and you could really use

their money

if not

their support

and a clean pair of underwear;

So what do you do?

Become harder

or melt like butter?

Say you're sorry

with tears in your eyes

or say never!

Have a break down

or acknowledge your

limitations

and live with them?

But at $40 per day

$185 per week

$750 per month

you couldn't spend too long

doing any of this.

But my only problem

was the lack of money;

I had acknowledged my

limitations

long ago.

When I came back

the young woman

now looking completely

hopeless

was still on the couch

and didn't get up.

Perhaps she should rent that

room herself

get her life in order

and tell Rajneesh

or whoever knocked her up

to beat it.

She looked terminally hopeless.

My "Thank you"

prompted

but a slight

flutter of her hand

that lay

over her heart

and which looked like

it was preventing

the blood

from flowing out.

 

I walked back to the hostel

just minutes

before the kitchen was closed

for afternoon cleanup.

Grabbing a brown

paper bag

labeled with my name

and my date of departure—

Lord, please let it be soon;

how much more of this holy shit

can your servant take?—

I was able to eat lunch

on a bench outside

in the rain;

lunch fit for the weather:

cold beans

and potato salad.

 

 

The cloud of poison

money

hangs over

city

country

nation

all.

It is their

only

every 

value.

Money-changer generations

ever changing

have trod, have trod ...

Mauvaises

huŕirén (坏人)

rén (人)

personnes,

any way

you look at it.

The mental deficit grows.